Dilemma

Ok I need some help (lots of help but that's a different story...).  Here's the sitch...

I am taking the exam for my professional registration in 5 weeks.  Need to do lots of studying for a 3 hour exam...never been good at studying

I have 2 business golf events (thankfully with my Women on Course group, but still business) and I SUCK.  Seriously, my swing is the stuff of nightmares.

And, while I get free golf at the country club, I have limited time available to actually take advantage of it!  This afternoon can actually work out to get some practice time on the course.

But this afternoon will also be a perfect time to hit the books hard.  I have to pass this test.  Can't make Principal or VP without it!

But I can't show up for the golf events and make a total ass of myself (ok, that may foregone) so I have to practice.

But...what do I do?

It's just not FAIR!

I know, I know! I've told my kids a hundred times (each) that life isn't fair blah blah blah...but geez!

The RA always gets it's own way. ALWAYS. And there is no 'mom' to mediate the issue. I have lots of people on my side, from my wonderful husband to my oh-so-patient-with-this-patient rheumatologist, but that doesn't matter. RA -100 / Beth - 0!

That's not to say I don't push it and gain some yards. I do. Ya gotta live, right? But sometimes, without warning or even any real provocation, the RA comes pushing back with a vengeance and not only takes back all my hard won semblance of normalcy but sacks me like a bad quarterback with no front line! (I am jonesing for football, can you tell?)

I am taking up golf (my rheumatologist doesn't know this yet, so don't tell him before I see him, ok?). Lots of business done on the course, etc. etc. So I join a women's networking/golf organization and a few of my clients registered us as a foursome for an event on the 21st. I can't wait. I just got a set of clubs yesterday and planned to hit the driving range this afternoon and play a few holes over the weekend.

The RA has other ideas. I am exhausted. My wrists, hands, knees and feet hurt terribly. I feel like a truck hit me. I want to go home and nap for a long, long time. AND I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TO DESERVE THIS!!! Nothing! Just went to work and came home.

Had a CMAA dinner meeting last night but left early and was home and in bed long before I normally would be. And why did I go to bed early? So I wouldn't be overtired and would feel good to hit the darn driving range today!

IT'S NOT FAIR